the one thing that’s worse than missing a person who has died, is missing a person who someone once was. it’s just like missing a person who’s died because you know they’re gone and there’s nothing you can do about it. but missing the person that someone once was is worse because you have to see them as a completely different person every day of your life and all you think about is how great they once had been
this is going to be really gay
fuck 2011 man, it was either really great or really fuckin shitty all year, there was never an in-between. i’m so much stronger and smarter than i was at the beginning, i was so ignorant i can’t even stand it. i met a boy who changed my whole fucking world and probably doesn’t even know it, he destroyed my heart which sucked fuckin dick but i’ve realized how good of a thing it was because i had to learn how to completely rebuild it on my own. my cliché ass life motto is “everything happens for a reason” so even though this year was so shitty, i know it had a purpose, which was to make me stronger. i’ve learned not to have any regrets and to realize how blessed i am, and i want to thank all my friends and family for being so fuckin great, love you guys
it’s literally idiotic how much of my happiness is depended on a boy who only wants to fuck with my head
i thought i was over you but i get a sharp pain in my heart every time i even see your name somewhere like even on a fucking billboard or something
i’m not supposed to be this girl fuck this shit
i think I’m literally obligated to be depressed after 12am, maybe I need to stop staying up late by myself every night
how come when a dude calls me babe/baby whatever, i like get this huge smile on my face and i get all giggly and shit, like when someone texts me it i turn into a huge ass faggot girl and like give myself that weird little self hug and just smile
idk it just makes me feel stupid as fuck
maybe your best fucking friend is right
maybe i can do better than you
like why do you guys need all this attention idgi, everyone just needs to fucking be chill and stop trying to find reasons to hate people just so you can start shit
